Mom

I thought about posting something the other day, but sat down and was so lost for words that I didnt know kinda where to begin. I think my brother's post is wonderful and the picture is by far my favorite as well. Definitely the most recent that was taken I am sure. She has a smile about her. It was taken the day before Glenn and I left on our Portland trip. I have so much that has happened in the last couple of months, but have not posted a bit. Maybe I will over the next week or so. Daron's blog is http://nicole-daron.blogspot.com/2009/10/mom.html go there. Many of you know him, a few of you have only heard of me talk about him and Nicole. I am about like Daron we had prepared and almost braced ourselves for so long. She had such a good summer making two different St. Louis trips and a Branson, MO trip. I think I had almost let that guard down. I know the end result that happened last Monday morning was by far the furthest thing from my mind when it did. I had even told Daron that things were fine and in fact left to get Dad and I breakfast and say bye to Glenn to go to work that morning. I guess that tells you how quickly things can change. Mom didnt suffer any more than the past years that she had. I am very grateful for that. I dont know if I will ever forget the way I felt when daddy told me or the way I felt when I had to tell Daron. I dont know really if I want to forget it. Its a reassurance of how much I loved her and how much I wanted to be looking at Daron when I told him. I am glad he has Nicole. Definitely makes me know how much I love my family. My dad cared for my mom so much. I was so mad at first knowing that it was my daddy's birthday and the fact that he had to give her that too, but now I look at it as in he is so unselfish that he wouldnt care one way or the other and that he loved her that much. Kinda fitting in a way.

It has been a week. Of course it is still fresh on our minds. Things have to get back to a swing sooner rather later. That is how life works. We dont have to forget, just continue to live on and remember. Kaylie still asks where Nana is and Dekan of course is a little confused on what happened and where she is now. I am sure that this will be the case for a few months. I am glad momma got to see them. I only wish that they could remember her. I doubt that this will be the case. Kaylie would beg me to talk to her on the phone every morning and then get on the phone and say 3 words to her the whole time. The kids were never scared of her being in the wheelchair and in fact would almost scare mom thinking that the kids were going to take it apart with her sitting in it. :) But we have the stories that we can tell them and hopefully relive the memories with them one day.

I always knew mom loved me and Daron, but now having kids I know how deep that love runs. Mom will be missed, but never forgotten.

Momma....we will always love you.